Gotta get a job before rent is due

I just got fired for the second time in my life. I don’t know what is wrong with me and why I can’t keep a job but I need to fix it. I’m five months pregnant I need to get a job asap. I’m going to attempt Sprouts and any other bakery I can find. […]

Passion

I think I found my passion. It is going to take all my energy to make it happen but I have a new partner and I know I can do this now. He has goals and I want him to believe he can fulfill them. So I’m make 2019 my most ambitious year so I […]

damn you for doing this to me

I told him I was falling in love and he said it back. He’s making me so nervous but I have to decide if I want to fall or not. Him saying it’s happening to him too doesn’t help. Well I guess it does, but in the back of my mind I think, do we […]

I don’t want to be loved

I feel like I have to make myself vulnorable to find a decent guy. I didn’t find a guy I thought I’d be with but I found someone that somehow knows the right things to say and do to not put me off. I’ve been in this mood where I want a guy to like […]

Dear Diary

This is why having a boyfriend helps because being in a relationship distracts me from all the stress of life so I can push through it still smiling. I’m starting to think there’s nothing wrong with not wanting to be alone and single. I spent a lot of time getting to know myself and I’ve […]

Big picture

I think it’s so weird that I’d prefer to talk to people in my head than in real life. I have control over what they say and what I say. If I mess up I can change the scene and try again. It’s perfect conversations every time and it’s not like that in real life. […]

April Showers

It’s now the 4th month of the year and I think it’s time to see how I’m doing with my plan and any changes that need to happen. Original Plan January- Move and get comfortable as cheaply as you can February- Find better job. March- All bills on auto-pay April- Save Save Save May- Send […]

Change in the plan

I wanted to leave Las Vegas this summer. I wanted to use my tax return to move back to Portland or maybe even pay some bills. Unfortunately, losing my job changed that; my return paid my March and April bills. That helped give me time to find a new job. My self-esteem is a little […]

:)

I met someone. He’s really sweet and dorky. He’s got beautiful blue eyes and a warm smile. Which is nice because when I met him he gave a weird awkward smile. It’s nice being excited.

Now What?

I can’t change the moments of my past, I can only manipulate the ones coming at me to design a future I’m happy to live in. Lost my job, and I haven’t really started the next one. I’m more than a little stressed. I finally thought my finances would be situated but I ran into […]