This is why having a boyfriend helps because being in a relationship distracts me from all the stress of life so I can push through it still smiling. I’m starting to think there’s nothing wrong with not wanting to be alone and single. I spent a lot of time getting to know myself and I’ve come to realize I’m at my best when I have a companion. I just don’t want to be with someone I feel I need to change. Like the last interest, the worst part? He was really attractive and he was openly attracted to me. The reason I let him go was he wasn’t on the path I was on. He had no license, he lived with his mom and didn’t work. I need a different kind of partner. My brother keeps telling me I have to be chosen and I have to be noticed. I’m going to take his advise for the summer because I have an awesome bod and I feel like I can show it off. I’m going to ask my sister to help me find an outfit for my birthday. Something that says, SEXY GROWN ASS WOMAN. Something that’s soft yet strong, something subtly inviting.
I was told when I was young that my zodiac was cancer. At first I thought it was stupid. I didn't have cancer and I don't like crabs. I did really enjoy the moon and apparently cancer, being a water sign, are driven by the moon. Junk science. I kept hold of the idea that I drew my power from the moon. That helped me shape my ideas of the universe and religion